All is well!

My scan went great. Saw bub's heartbeat! Thank goodness! It was 156BPM.

I saw him/her moving around so much, it was great to see.

They said i have an anterior placenta. So i probably won't be feeling much movement for a while yet.

I cannot believe i am 11 weeks now! Woo!

Here is a couple of pics of bub from the scan. S/he has grown so much since last time!

My lovely doula!

Well it's been playing on mymind too much thatsomething might be wrong with bub. I was talking toEmma about it and as her brother-in-law is an Obstetrician,she got him towrite me outa referal for a scan to check on bub! I'm so happy about that.

My scan is booked in for tomorrow at 4pm.

Worried about bub

For the last couple of days i've been really worried about bub. Maybe cause my morning sickness has pretty much gone and i can't feel movement yet but i keep thinking, what if something has gone wrong and i don't know about it? I'm not having a 12 week scan so if something had happened, i won't know.

So i decided to get my doppler out and have a check for the heartbeat. But i've lost the charger for it so now i cant use it. Jacob is going to try and buy another one somewhere. But i just keep thinking now that something is wrong and i'm none the wiser.

I thought about getting the 12 week scan to check on things but i really don't want to because that's not what it's for and i don't wanna know about the NT results. If something was to show up we wouldn't terminate anyway so i dont see the point and if something was wrong well i would rather know when bub was born rather then dwell on it for the next 6 months.

I just wish i could feel some movement or something.

Doulas

Still travelling along nicely. Morning sickness is still around. On and off all day though.

I have started interviewing doulas this week. I have decided to have 2. A qualified and a student (only cause i cant afford 2 qualified). I've chosen my main one (the qualified one), Emma and i just have to interview 2 more students one tomorrow and the other on Friday (saw one today) and i'll choose between the 3. I reckon it's going to be a hard pick!

I have my first appointment with the homebirth midwife at the end of this month. I'll be around 12 weeks then.

I've decided not to have the 12 week NT scan because if something was to be wrong we wouldnt terminate anyway, so i don't see the point in having it.

I always said i would never find out the sex of this baby but i keep finding myself wanting to know at the 20 week scan. I hope i can hold out!